Here's the truth!!

I just want you to know, but I don’t wanna tell you. I really wonder why people suddenly change. One day they were here, the next day they’re gone. One day I was important to them, the next day....I’m worthless. WORTHLESS J I really wonder why some guys just focus to how to get the girls, the next day they’re forget to learn how to keep them. How ironic the things and person can be.

And after all these things that I’ve done to you......what now?you left me easily. Forget all the promises you made. I thought you said you wanna introspection yourself, prepare yourself to be a better man, never hurt me, never want to make me dissapointed. But all ikno is....the person who broke my heart is the one who swore he never would

“waiting is painful, forgetting is painful, but......not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering”

I’m quiet. it doesn’t mean I’m stupid. I still remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving. Do you think I’m trying to fix it now? no, I’m just trying to deal with it. I was waiting for you to text me first to see if I really do come across your mind, but I guess not. Not at all. I’m not a kind of girl who likes to start the conversation, who shows my feelings easily, who lives my life to please you like them haha. From all these things I think you can take one point: I never stop loving you, I just stop showing it. So if you mind I don’t love you no more, I don’t care at you at all, I don’t want you anymore, you’re not everything I think about......you are wrong. After all this time I’m just trying to hide my feelings, I just pretend that I like that guy I always talk about him everyday with my friends so they’re really think if I’m moving on and I guess it works. And you know what really sucks about it?sometimes I just want my friends told you about this if I’m okay and I’m moving on as fast as you do. Ukno all this time you show me that you really love her in front of me, idk if you wanna make me jealous or whatever, I just hate to hear that. You talked like we never loved at all, you talked like I wasn’t there... both of you kinda make me wanna kill myself!! bet it sucks. so I tried to play like I was ok and kept my cool. i don't want you to know that i cry, I only want you to know me as the girl who laughs and the girl who can make others laugh. I want you to know me as the girl who can help people, not the girl that doesn't even know what's wrong with herself. I want you to know me as the girl that always smiles that smile, not the girl that's insecure about her personality. i don't ever want to mess up around you, because maybe then, you'll think i'm stupid. Well, Pretending I’m fine when I’m dying inside is the hardest part.

So....

now you can see how fuckin’ happy I am without you