Welcome December!! Be nice please ok, it means bye November.......including all those memories and the pain in it.
Too much thought, too much pain...my mind is full and it makes me stressed out. Fuck school, fuck jealousy, fuck people who don’t care, fuck someone who let me go, tired of everyone here, tired to be lied to, tired to be cheated on. Lately I didn’t wanna eat. Starving but I don’t want any food I see, I can’t figure out the food that I want and I don’t think it even exist. Some nights I dreamt about the same person. That boy, yeah the one who made me feel like I was nothing... when I sleep, he’s the first thing that I see in my dream and it don’t happen just for once, but everyday. Everyday. idk, maybe I think about him a lot.
"I love you more than words can say"
I got more info and it made me.........breathless 
“I’m still in love with you,really. I’ll back and try when I know I’m a better man...”
is that ur promise? Oh ok, I mean ur ‘fake promise’, right? Remember? What now? You left it through my head. You made it looks so easy with the way you broke those promises. If only you knew.... I just needed you to prove it, yohanes. But you didn’t. You broke all the chances that I ever gave to you. 
When I said “it’s ok. you better with her” it doesn’t mean I wanna let you go, but that was just the things I wanted to say “HEY I REALLY LOVE YOU! She’s jerk! I don’t want she tear us apart! Never!”.....
I can’t believe after all the things that I’ve done to him, he just let me go....
they're happy now. she will love him more than I could
“would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed?...”
I’m done with November.
Dear December, I want you take my pain away.
