It’s the time when she saw him for the first time in her new school. She didn’t excited about his name, where from he is, his class, or anything about him. She never thought that he’ll come into her life & she wasn’t supposed to fall in love with him, and he wasn’t supposed to mean that much to her. She spent her school like the same and everytime she was talking to her friends, she heard his name over and over, and that’s how she knew his name. The next day, her friend (call her est) told her about her new friend. “he’s so an atractive boy & he’ so loud. He’s too talkative hhhh. But he can be a nice friend, really.” Then, est told everything about him, include how he treats his girlfriend with bad way. And when she heard it, she just like “ew. he’s like the rest....” And that’s how she knew him. 1 month passed. The time when breakfasting on their school. He came with his white cardigan. she didn’t even excited to talk to him. But suddenly he joined her friends and talked about many things. From this moment she thought he’s different, He’s funny, and she like the way how he make all people around him laugh. She still remember the conversation. After that moment she changed her mind “I guess it’s nice to have a friend like him”.... and that’s how they started talking.
He came into her life. Unexpectedly. Don’t know how it starts, but it just happened unexpectedly. Yeah, unexpected. She fell in love with the most unexpexted person. And he came with unexpected way. She believed every word he said. He treats her well. And that’s why she fall in love with him, he loved her too. They loved each other.
In the middle of the story, accidentally was happening. His hand was broke and she saw this accidentally moment in front of her. She was trying her hardest not to cry in front of them, but then they ask her “are you ok?he’s gonna be fine...”she just lose it. She hates this moment. she wanted to believe them when they told her everything’s ok, but she didn’t. He had to stay at hospital about 3weeks. there’s nothing she could do. She prayed for him. everyday. She did her best. She has done everything to him. She tried and tried to be the person that he want. She was the one who accompanied him, she was the one who cheers him up. She was there when he cried. She’s got yell from his parents because she was always came home late at night after accompaning him, and the worst is she lied to her parents too often just for him. And it feels like everything’s ok because she was really love him.... everyday he’s always told her “don’t worry, I’ll be fine”......she didn’t believe it. His eyes wasn’t told her so.
Boy : I’m scared
Girl : why? I’m on your side now.
Boy : I’m just too scared that you’ll leave me after this.
Girl : what the hell is word that you said...
Boy : be honest, do you really love me? really love me for who I am?
Girl : I really love you
Boy : are you serious...
Girl : of course!
Boy :............I love you more
He was smiling then he held her hands so tight. They looked eyes to eyes. So close. And suddenly he kissed her cheek softly...... She really love that moment. and now she’s wondering if he ever remember this conversation... and it’s going to be memories that kill her.
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| This hand he used to hold. now it's starting to get cold... |
But, now it’s over. that jerk stole her pen when she just want to write the story of them. she just hope one day he will realize...... “gosh! She’s really love me! how did I let her go?”
“Did you forget it all? now I miss the smell of hospital in summer time & I guess ikno what it means, dear. Does she exist when you felt like everything’s broken? Does she exist to cheers you up? Does she right beside you that time? Who was doing all those things?.....that’s me. ME. THAT’s ME! You didn’t figure out what I’m feeling now, being replaced is the worst thing ever!! What do you want? Would it make you feel better? It’s ok if you didn’t love me right because I’d rather you be mean than fake love and lie. I never mad as hell as I do if you say the truth. You’re the first guy I’m falling for”
And that’s how it feels... and her mind is change like from the start “yeah, he’s like the rest!!!”
Everytime...someone says his name & her head turn right towards them. It’s like everytime she hear it, she think of all they ever had. Everyday...she tell herself “I’m not gonna cry.....I won’t....I won’t......” but it just wouldn’t ever work. She’s just a liar who pretend like everything’s ok. She started laughing, but she really wanted to cry. Everynight....she finds herself in bed reliving every word he said and....even though she’s been over him for a long time, now she’s wondering if he ever lies in bed and thinks the same things.
yeah, I think she’s too nice to him and that’s how she get hurt, ryt?
