Nice Hurricane :)

Guess what? I just woke up from a looooong nap & I'm feeling like Princess Sleepy beauty with messed up hair. I wake up hearing a snap crackle pop, and I guess that's the cereal but NO, that's the sound from my body. And I guess you know what happened to me.
Hi, that's just the bad news. I want to tell you the good one. Yesterday I just reach the top of Gede mountain, for the first time (with canimount in my highschool) The beginer usually hike this first. If you read my last post you may think that I'm a canimount, hiker, or whatever. I found that excitement in travelling since I was 5 yo & my daddy used to take me anywhere. He used to canimount on his college, exactly.

Started the day off  not as we planned. Rain, rain, everywhere.... Good thing, there are some girlrs who always kept me motivated to go up haha.  My classmate told that I'm not 'macho' enough to hike-_- yeah I know. Better to shop good stuffs in mall than to do this. But hiking is not hard as it seems, you won't regret it until you find this view...

amazing Edelweiss field

Yup, Surya Kencana! (Edelweiss field in Gunung Gede, Bogor) We got there about 12 am and we made our tent here. Sadly, on 4 pm the hurricane came when we were not been satisfied enjoy the scenery. Suddenly that blue sky changed into the dark & scary view. On that moment I wish I could take the sun to pull that dark clouds and clear the sky  here:( It was a cold night, really really cold night. Even I didn't realize I slept in kak vicky's hug. She said that I was shiver, that my body froze. I could't move my body but I was awake, until he gave me minyak kayu putih to warm my hands and about 10 minutes later, my body back to normal condition. Until at 9 pm it didn't pass, the hurricane incessantly made the water from outside enters our tent cause our tent apparently 'bocor' and also, we made our camp on low land of edelweiss field so we couldn't avoid this. That's why I told you that it was a really cold night. It should be a lovely night where we can find those sparkling stars in edelweiss field & have a restful night but that would be a lie. Whoa. I couldn't sleep at all hoping the weather is better tomorrow. 

When the hurricane begin to come down..

The next day, it was drizzling. I got up a little late at 5 am then I helped some girls to make breakfast. How boring, we made instant noodles, again (yeah you know instant noodle is easy, fast, yummy, and cheap, haha). But some of us cook canned sardines too. That's my favorite part. After cooking and preparing our daypack, we intended to hike more cause the rain held off long enough for us to reach the top through the muddy trail.

05.00 am

Finally! About 15 minutes later, we reached the top of gede mount. Hm we a lil bit late so we couldn't watch the sun rise and I tried to put a "I ain't even sad tho" face... huh. But that's not too bad:-D lucky to meet these kind people they made me feel comfort, and it makes me didn't care about my hair, or clothes, or muddy face, or that heavy boots, hahaha.

Tired face

Iwan, Nanda, Enggar

Hallo! Udah lama posting huehe postingan terakhir gue tuh kayaknya asdfghjkl bbanget ya.....tapi sekarang udah ga lagi dong B-)

Hari Jumat kemaren tanggal 13 (Friday the 13th....jeng) gue sama temen-temen sekelas X TKJ 1 (minus tika, dito, ravi), bu Kuri + anak & suaminya pergi nanjak ke gunung halimun Salak. Awal niatnya sih buat nyatuin anak kelas gue yang ga kompak & ada juga yang punya masalah, dan masalah lainnya blablabla. Dan bahkan, ada satu orang yang curhat ke gue kalo selama ini dia masih nganggep kalo ini bukan kayak kelas:” Mankanya itu bu Kuri ngadain acara jalan jalan gini deh. Kebetulan bu Kuri pengalaman sama hal hal yang berkaitan sama alam jadinya kita semua pergi nanjak gunung deh HOREEEE!

Kita berangkat sekitar jam 1.30 dari sekolah. Tronton udah ada di parkiran ga tau jam berapa, yang jelas pas gue & anak-anak cewenya lagi ganti baju, kita semua nerima sms dari Rifan isinya kayak gini: “cepetan! Abang trontonnya udah marah2!”........bt banget bacanya. Selama itu kah kami ganti baju?-_- gue tau itu cuma siasat rifan supaya kita panik dan cepet-cepet ganti baju supaya cepet berangkat soalnya dia udah ga sabar. Dan abis blablabla segala macem akhirnya kita semua masuk tronton. Di tronton sempet krik dan mulai rame banget pas jalan nanjak.

Kita nyampe di kaki gunung salak sekitar jam 4 kalo ga salah. Pas nyampe solat dulu di warung mang Koko. Abis itu kita harus nanjak sebentar buat nyampe tempat campingnya. Disana cowoknya langsung kerja sama bikin 3 tenda buat anak sekelas, yang anak ceweknya langsung nyiapin hi-cook & mi buat masak makan malem. Buat ngerebus airnya itu butuh perjuangan. Yang cewe harus ke bawah lagi ngelewatin jalan berbatu yang licin dan langitnya udah lumayan gelap buat ngambil airnya, jadi harus super hati-hati. Pas jam 8 malem selsai makan dan solat, tiba-tiba ujan turun lumayan deres, jadi ga sempet ngumpul-ngumpul lagi sama yang lain, yah jadi Cuma ngumpul sama temen satu tenda doang deh huhu. Di tenda gue isinya ada gue, Nanda, Syifa, Wulan, Santi, Oca, Bu Kuri, Nimas, Galuh. Selama di tenda ngobrol banyakkkkk banget ga abis-abis, kecuali nimas sama galuh ada orangnya tapi ga kedengeran suaranya-_-

Pas jam 11 udah pada tidur & sebelum tidur kendalanya itu...... ada kucing gunung tiba-tiba di masuk ke dalem tenda cewek, padahal tenda udah ditutup rapet2. Pas udah diusir dan tenda kembali dicek kalo udah bener2 rapet tetep aja kucing itu masuk lagi. Gue heran dia masuk darimana. Padahal udaj dicek sekeliling tenda ga ada yang bolong. Kucing yang dikata Adi “kucing misterius” ini ternyata juga masuk ke tenda cowok juga. Wah...

kucing misterius

Alarm bu kuri bunyi jam 4. Sebenernya gue udah bangun tapi pura-pura tidur sampe bu Kuri bangunin make suaranya sendiri. Ngantuk paraaaaah padahal.

dan ini tampang gue pas masih ngantuk.....

 Pas jam 4 itu anak-anak langsung turun ke bawah lewat jalan berbatu, licin, gelap itu lagi dan solat subuh di warung mang koko. Abis solat, kita semua naik lagi ke tempat ngecamp dan beres-beres perlengkapan kita semua yang mau dibawa, pas naik ke atas udah lumayan terang dan banyak aja ibu-ibu yang jualan makanan sama minuman gitu masa. Ada yang jual nasi uduk, mi goreng, gorengan, susu, kopi dll semacemnya lah. Mereka jualannya make bakul yang buat biasa dibawa tukang jamu gitu loh. Anak-anak ada yang sarapan dulu atau sekedar ngopi tapi entah kenapa gue ga laper sama sekali dan gue ga mau makan, lagipula kan gue cuma bawa 10rb HAHAHAHAHA yg lain pada kaget pas gue bilang gue Cuma bawa uang segitu, pada nanya “serius lo gar??” atau “yang bener gar?” dan berbagai macam respon wkwk gue sengaja bawa segitu soalnya mencegah keboroans, lebih baik mencegah daripada terlambat (y). sekitar jam 7 baru deh kita semua sama-sama nanjak gunung  yang sebenernya. Kata bu Kuri otw kesana bisa 4 jam, jadi kita nyampe kawah ratu sekitar jam 11an. Bayangkan jalan kaki selama 4 jam gimana rasanya coba.....gue udah kebayang macem-macem kalo gue bakal kelaperan, kehausan, dan bahkan pingsan ok lebay btw selama 15 tahun ini gue hidup gue belom pernah sama sekali loh yang namanya ngerasain pingsan. Alhamdulillah sih tapi penasaran aja gimana rasanya. Ehiya lanjut, mana jalanannya terjal, kiri kanan semak-semak dan.....gue make malindi-_- gue bener2 ga kepikiran kalo jalanan mau ke gunung tuh kayak gini hhhh norak banget ya gue. Bahkan ada anak cowok yang nyeletuk “enggar mau daki gunung atau mau ke mall?”............cukup. cukup. Cukup!!!!

Selama perjalanan gue Cuma bawa 1 roti dan 1 susu kotak, yang lain pada bawa tas isinya aqua 1 liter. Di tengah jalan baru inget kalo gue ga bawa air putih sama sekali padahal itu penting banget astagaastagaastagaaaaa.

30menit....

“eh udah deket belom sih?”

“dikit lagi! Semangat!!”

1 jam.....

“udah deket belom?”

“dikit lagi”

1,5 jam.....

“masih jauh ya?”

“gak.”

Cukup.

Dan akhirnya dengan kata-kata php itu gue dan kawan-kawan berhasil nyampe kawah ratu! XD lewat batu batu, lembah, air terjun, tanah blok dan segala macemnya lah. Nyampe sana langsung istirahat terus foto-foto pemandangannya baguuuuus banget.

Liat kanan kiri udah kawah & bukit kapur gitu. Subhanallah. Udah gitu mana ngakak aja anaknya bu kuri setiap difoto make gaya spiderman mulu wkwkwk sampe bu kuri bilang ke anaknya “kamu ganti gaya napa sih gitu mulu”......astaga anak jaman 2012 sekarang....

Di atas sana sepiiii banget. Ga ada rombongan yang lain selain kita, ga ada tukang jualan juga. Eh ada sih orang satu doang selain kita, tapi gue ga tau dia siapa.

telah berdiri sejak 1990....

abis itu semuanya pada main ciprat-cipratan air deh di sungai, eh bukan sungai deh gue ga tau namanya apa tapi yang jelas arusnya deres aja banget. Sepatu gue hampir kebawa tau ga sih untung nimas cepet nangkep, makasih nimas :D kalo ga ada sepatu itu....ga tau deh nasib kaki gue kayak gimana. Di tempat itu muka kita blepotan semua, abis itu badan gue juga basah. Seruuuu pokoknya seru mau balik lagi! L

Abis blablabla akhirnya pulang...... aaaa padahal masih mau main-main L tapi katanya bu kuri harus pulang jam segitu biar nyampe jakarta ga malem hhh yaudah akhirnya balik pulang lewat jalanan yang sama deh. Pas jalan turun depan gue ricky. Siapa ricky? ricky itu ketua kelas X TKJ 1, baik, hobi memasak, calon pelawak ovj, mudah tersentuh hatinya eh enggadeng, penggemar goodtime sampe sampe choco chipnya masih nyisa sampe sekarang. Barisan ricky ke belakang tuh ketinggalan banget tapi ngakak terus wakakakak. Ricky ngelawak mulu. Dengan gaya sok cool-nya dia jatoh dan tangannya masih dilipet sumpah itu kocak banget, gue sama bagas ngakak ngeliatinnya. Akhir-akhirnya nanda sama wulan yang ada di depan malah jadi pindah ke belakang wkwk gara-gara denger suara ngakak mulu kali ya akhirnya mereka jbjb deh. Perjalanan pulang ricky ngelawak mulu walaupun ga lucu tapi kita semua ngakak. Bukan karena lawakannya lucu, tapi karena kita ga ngerti sama sekali sama apa yang dia lawakin-_--- wkwkwk. Sepanjang perjalanan aris sering banget ngomong “cumungudh ea kaka” dan ricky dengan stylenya ngomong “semangat......” dan itu ga bikin semangat, malah bikin tambah lemes wkwk.

Kita semua nyampe jakarta pas jam 06.00 kalo ga salah. Dengan selamat pastinya. Di tronton jalan pulang semuanya pada tidurrrrr. Hahaha pada kecapean ketara banget. Gue sebenernya ga bisa tidur, mankanya gue pura-pura tidur daripada bosen abisan ga ada yang bisa diajak ngobrol pada tidur semua. Pas udah mau sampe syifa bangun dan akhirnya kita nyanyi-nyanyi ga jelas saking bosennya hhhh.

 Terimakasih untuk 2 hari 1 malamnya yaa kawan-kawan<3

why would you hurt someone who's been there for you through it all?....

It’s the time when she saw him for the first time in her new school. She didn’t excited about his name, where from he is, his class, or anything about him. She never thought that he’ll come into her life & she wasn’t supposed to fall in love with him, and he wasn’t supposed to mean that much to her. She spent her school like the same and everytime she was talking to her friends, she heard his name over and over, and that’s how she knew his name. The next day, her friend (call her est) told her about her new friend. “he’s so an atractive boy & he’ so loud. He’s too talkative hhhh. But he can be a nice friend, really.” Then, est told everything about him, include how he treats his girlfriend with bad way. And when she heard it, she just like “ew. he’s like the rest....” And that’s how she knew him. 1 month passed. The time when breakfasting on their school. He came with his white cardigan. she didn’t even excited to talk to him. But suddenly he joined her friends and talked about many things. From this moment she thought he’s different, He’s funny, and she like the way how he make all people around him laugh. She still remember the conversation. After that moment she changed her mind “I guess it’s nice to have a friend like him”.... and that’s how they started talking.

He came into her life. Unexpectedly. Don’t know how it starts, but it just happened unexpectedly. Yeah, unexpected. She fell in love with the most unexpexted person. And he came with unexpected way. She believed every word he said. He treats her well. And that’s why she fall in love with him, he loved her too. They loved each other.

In the middle of the story, accidentally was happening. His hand was broke and she saw this accidentally moment in front of her. She was trying her hardest not to cry in front of them, but then they ask her “are you ok?he’s gonna be fine...”she just lose it. She hates this moment. she wanted to believe them when they told her everything’s ok, but she didn’t. He had to stay at hospital about 3weeks. there’s nothing she could do. She prayed for him. everyday. She did her best. She has done everything to him. She tried and tried to be the person that he want. She was the one who accompanied him, she was the one who cheers him up. She was there when he cried. She’s got yell from his parents because she was always came home late at night after accompaning him, and the worst is she lied to her parents too often just for him. And it feels like everything’s ok because she was really love him.... everyday he’s always told her “don’t worry, I’ll be fine”......she didn’t believe it. His eyes wasn’t told her so.

Boy : I’m scared

Girl : why? I’m on your side now.

Boy : I’m just too scared that you’ll leave me after this.

Girl : what the hell is word that you said...

Boy : be honest, do you really love me? really love me for who I am?

Girl : I really love you

Boy : are you serious...

Girl : of course!

Boy :............I love you more

He was smiling then he held her hands so tight. They looked eyes to eyes. So close. And suddenly he kissed her cheek softly...... She really love that moment. and now she’s wondering if he ever remember this conversation... and it’s going to be memories that kill her.

This hand he used to hold. now it's starting to get cold...

But, now it’s over. that jerk stole her pen when she just want to write the story of them. she just hope one day he will realize...... “gosh! She’s really love me! how did I let her go?”

“Did you forget it all? now I miss the smell of hospital in summer time & I guess ikno what it means, dear. Does she exist when you felt like everything’s broken? Does she exist to cheers you up? Does she right beside you that time? Who was doing all those things?.....that’s me. ME. THAT’s ME! You didn’t figure out what I’m feeling now, being replaced is the worst thing ever!! What do you want? Would it make you feel better? It’s ok if you didn’t love me right because I’d rather you be mean than fake love and lie. I never mad as hell as I do if you say the truth. You’re the first guy I’m falling for”

And that’s how it feels... and her mind is change like from the start “yeah, he’s like the rest!!!”

Everytime...someone says his name & her head turn right towards them. It’s like everytime she hear it, she think of all they ever had. Everyday...she tell herself “I’m not gonna cry.....I won’t....I won’t......” but it just wouldn’t ever work. She’s just a liar who pretend like everything’s ok. She started laughing, but she really wanted to cry. Everynight....she finds herself in bed reliving every word he said and....even though she’s been over him for a long time, now she’s wondering if he ever lies in bed and thinks the same things.

yeah, I think she’s too nice to him and that’s how she get hurt, ryt?

Here's the truth!!

I just want you to know, but I don’t wanna tell you. I really wonder why people suddenly change. One day they were here, the next day they’re gone. One day I was important to them, the next day....I’m worthless. WORTHLESS J I really wonder why some guys just focus to how to get the girls, the next day they’re forget to learn how to keep them. How ironic the things and person can be.

And after all these things that I’ve done to you......what now?you left me easily. Forget all the promises you made. I thought you said you wanna introspection yourself, prepare yourself to be a better man, never hurt me, never want to make me dissapointed. But all ikno is....the person who broke my heart is the one who swore he never would

“waiting is painful, forgetting is painful, but......not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering”

I’m quiet. it doesn’t mean I’m stupid. I still remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving. Do you think I’m trying to fix it now? no, I’m just trying to deal with it. I was waiting for you to text me first to see if I really do come across your mind, but I guess not. Not at all. I’m not a kind of girl who likes to start the conversation, who shows my feelings easily, who lives my life to please you like them haha. From all these things I think you can take one point: I never stop loving you, I just stop showing it. So if you mind I don’t love you no more, I don’t care at you at all, I don’t want you anymore, you’re not everything I think about......you are wrong. After all this time I’m just trying to hide my feelings, I just pretend that I like that guy I always talk about him everyday with my friends so they’re really think if I’m moving on and I guess it works. And you know what really sucks about it?sometimes I just want my friends told you about this if I’m okay and I’m moving on as fast as you do. Ukno all this time you show me that you really love her in front of me, idk if you wanna make me jealous or whatever, I just hate to hear that. You talked like we never loved at all, you talked like I wasn’t there... both of you kinda make me wanna kill myself!! bet it sucks. so I tried to play like I was ok and kept my cool. i don't want you to know that i cry, I only want you to know me as the girl who laughs and the girl who can make others laugh. I want you to know me as the girl who can help people, not the girl that doesn't even know what's wrong with herself. I want you to know me as the girl that always smiles that smile, not the girl that's insecure about her personality. i don't ever want to mess up around you, because maybe then, you'll think i'm stupid. Well, Pretending I’m fine when I’m dying inside is the hardest part.

So....

now you can see how fuckin’ happy I am without you